Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Thanksgiving Blessings!

How do I express all that I’m thankful for this thanksgiving? When I think of the the blessings God had bestowed on me my mind starts racing and it becomes overwhelming! How often do I sit down to think about everything that has been giving to me? How often is my focus on the things I wish I had?

(Psalms 118:24) This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
This is another day that God has blessed me with. I will Glorify His name in the morning and at night! I will sing praise unto Him!

Each day is another day to watch my children grow and kiss their little faces. A chance to teach my children God’s word so that it is hidden in their hearts forever.
(Deuteronomy 11:18- 19) Fix these words of mine in your heart and minds; tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them to your foreheads. Teach them to your children, talking about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and get up.

Each day is a new day to submit to my husband. (Ephesians 5: 22) Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. This man who God has blessed me with, is my soul mate. My husband is the leader of this home and I am his helper.

Each day is another day to grow in my faith. With every new passage I read, a door to my heart is opened and His Spirit fills me up with conviction and overwhelming joy. The scripture humbles me before God. As I am confessing how low I am, he lifts my head, dries my tears of sorrow and enfolds me with His Love! He reminds me of my worth! (Romans 5:8) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. How can I argue this love for me?

Each new day is a day to show Christ with in me. To be, a beacon of light in this dark world. (Matthew 5: 14-16) You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise you Father in heaven.

Each new day is a day to Persevere! (Hebrews 12: 1) Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witness, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

Each new day is a day to rejoice and be thankful! (Hebrews 12: 28-29) There fore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship “God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.”

Still unending days of blessings are to come. I will be blessed with an opportunity to be with my Heavenly Father. (Daniel 7:18) But the saints of the Most High will receive the kingdom and will posses it forever- yes, for ever and ever.

Happy Thanksgiving! God is Good!

Monday, November 23, 2009


I wanted to share what has been happening in my life recently! Where to begin? Let's go back to 2006. David and I have been given blessings upon blessings. We have a beautiful home, a beautiful marriage, a three yr old daughter and a 1 yr old son. We love Alabama, called the Bible belt and feel comforted by its southern hospitalities! Children are taught to say yes sir and yes ma'am. People are friendly! Neighbors chit chat and it is hard not to pick up the southern accent. Even with the humidity, hurricanes, banana spiders, green frogs under door handles, and lack of extended family close by, we feel content! Now the question is why? Was it because I was closer to God? Not necessarily! I actually feel closer to God at this time than I ever have in my life. Was it because of all the blessings bestowed on me?  A beautiful family? When I met my husband I was filled with more joy that I could have imagined! "A cheerful heart is good medicine"(Proverbs 17:22)  He was my good medicine. I'll tell you about life up to the point of meeting David another day! When I had my first child Judianna, I finally knew what unconditional love was. She changed me in so many ways for the better! I became a mother at age 20 and I wouldn't change it for anything. She is responsible for me become a women. God knew what I needed and He provides in perfect timing. Tell you about that another day too! Was I happier because of the ability to live comfortably? Nice house, which we paid 83,000 for! No, because I can remember being upset when we were taking wall paper down! Oh but to look back and remember the joys of that house. The thought makes my heart hurt!
So in 2006, David's Navy base is scheduled to close. I believe this should have been an indicator of an declining economy. He has till the end of 2006 before his enlistment is up or he can request early out because of the situation. At this time, we are feeling a strong pull back to southwest. I'll give you our reason. He has served seven years. 1st half was deployment, 2nd half shore duty. After shore duty you will have to go back to a ship for another 4 yrs. We had been there, done that, and it wasn't fun. Doors were opening in New Mexico and closing in Alabama. Hence here we are!
This is were the story begins. The past 3 years have been vividly played out in my mind but at the same time a blur. 2006 was the beginning of my rough year and the beginning of my restoration. When we came back to New Mexico, lots of doors had been opened alright! Pandora's Box! All the stuff I had pushed aside from growing up here and family issues came rushing in like wild elephants, robbing my joy in the process. I was an emotional wreck. I had a baby, no house, no job, no support, no stiblity. My life was upside down!

At this time the housing market is sky high. Just to have something comparable to my house in AL, I was looking at 200,000. Big jump from our first buy! After leaving in-laws, with much heartache, we bought a fixer upper. It's all we could afford. For some reason renting was not an option for us. I guess we were trying to recreate what we left behind in Alabama. This reality was night and day though! I wish we would have taken pictures of this house before we started, but I dont think we wanted to remember the conditions out of pride.

2009, is when I got my life back! You see, I was miserable for 3 yrs. I have been a walking zombie! A prisoner in my own body! I allowed Satan to take away my joy. But guess what, I'm now learning that my joy comes from my precious Savoir. I have been broken down to shambles, to the point that there was no way for me to succeed on my own. My God wants better for me! When I was done feeling sorry for myself, God revealed to me that all the pain had been for a reason. I can look back and see how God has used these circumstances to pull me back to him. Our joy in Alabama was a blessing and our pain here is too! Eventhough I remince of how happy we were in Alabama, I'm happy to be here! I'm starting to love my house. It's no where near done and in a constant state of remolding. My husband has a great job which provides for us adequately. Our children are growing beautifully! Judianna has accepted Christ and has been baptized. Abram told me the other day he wants our house in Heaven.  I guess It can't be that bad then! We have found a church that requires us to be involved, as it should. It's not a church full of lavish means but the word of God is there and convicts me most Sundays. I have met wonderful christian women and have made lasting friendships. Something I had wished for and never had. I'm in my bible everyday because of its healing powers. God's word speaks to me, God tells me the truth, God never leaves me, God always forgives! What I'm trying to say is, everything in Alabama was peachy! Everything in NM has not been so sweet! Am I a better person today though? Am I happier? Where does my joy come from now?
In closing I will rejoice in my restoration! I have found a new joy that has only been from reading God's word. He has filled me up!  2009, is the year of truth. The get down to the stuff, that really matters, year. I pray I never go back to the misery I allowed. Yes, I allowed! I hope that my story will remind you that happiness is a choice. It's were we put our focus.  Paul's writings have spoken to me.
(2 corinthains 12: 9-10) " But he said to me, " my grace is suffiecent for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power rest in me. That is why, for Christ's sake I delight in weakness, in insult, in hardship, in persecution, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Thank you my Precious Redeemer for how you have made me weak so that through you I can be strong again! Amen

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Weekend Highs and Lows!

One of my fondest memories as a child was the times my family would load up in a beat up van and head out to the mountains to discover nature, climb hills that to us seemed to be Mount Everest and pretend we were archaeologist with large collection of polished rocks and fossils. This past weekend I was able to watch my children enjoy that same since of adventure. Judianna (7yrs) was a little scared at first as we climbed but Abram (4yrs) lead the way as if he had been there and climbed it before. As we climbed higher we found little coves where we hide inside and took pictures. Crazy looking rocks that stood forty feet high in wide open areas appeared to have been placed and frozen for all to wonder in amazement of the Creator of our universe. The kids picked up rocks as we went along and Judianna insisted that she was going to find gold in dried up water ways. Even in my pessimism I hoped she would. As we got closer to the top we would stop to look down and see how far we had climbed. We all felt each little hill was a mile stone. Praising each other on how far we had come. It was so quite and the view of distant mesas helped to remind us of how small we really are. As we neared the top we realized there was no safe way to climb any further. We were feeling a little defeated but quickly reminded that we had climbed for a couple hours and cactus bushes were beginning to become invisible. Our little leader was soon reminded that those little thorny bushes we pointed out at the beginning of the trip really do hurt. Luckily they were mostly stuck in his pants. Heading back seemed much hard to me because of the loose sand and gravity. Dave soon learned that rocks that appeared to unmovable can quickly roll out from under you. From a glance he was gracefully walking on top of a rolling rock. It wasn't until he landed feet sprawled in either direction and practically laying on his neck that I realized what had happened. I was shocked, worried, and wondering how the paramedics would ever find us if he had a back or neck injury. After a minute of asking are you okay fifty times. He assured me he was and we all began to laugh! Just to let you know I got a picture of that also! The trip down went a lot faster than the trip up. Two hours up and thirty minutes down. Isn't funny how life is kinda that way. It feels like to takes forever to accomplish something. My Christian life has been a mountain. Always wanting to reach that top. Were God can say "well done my faithful servant". There has been many large cactus bushes in my path and plenty of times were I ended up on my back but through it all I have a Savior who picks me up attends to my wounds. So I'll close in prayer. Dear precious Heavenly Father, I humbly come before you announcing to the world that you Lord amazes me. That I am in constant awe of you! Thank you God for sending your son to die for a sinner like me. I thank you Lord that you dwell within me and that you will never leave me. Thank you for my husband and children! May I be what you want me to be. I say all this in your Holy name, amen